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Transition

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Transition is a stage of labor that is characterized by emotional volatility including anger.  It is the stage between the “passive” phase of allowing the cervix to dilate and the “active” phase of pushing the baby out.

Over two decades ago I was a childbirth educatorpregnant and a doula.  During this time I also gave birth to my daughter.  After a couple days of labor and using traditional methods to stimulate labor (walking, castor oil, etc) it was determined that I was “failing to progress” and I decided that moving to the hospital for an oxytocin drip was in order.

Oxytocin is a hormone naturally produced by the body that stimulates uterine contractions.  It is responsible for menstrual cramps, nipple sensitivity, and the “bang” in orgasm.  When administered by IV it can induce strong, demanding, and uncomfortable contractions.  Pregnant women that take this route to induce a labor find the contractions come back-to-back, are strong, and frequently unbearable.

My reaction?  I went to sleep.  Apparently I went to the hospital to get a good nap after a couple days of slow and uneven labor.

A strong contraction woke me up from my slumber.  I was confused and angry.  I demanded the doctor shut off the drip. I was impatient while she considered my order.  (Of course I could have just flipped the switch off myself, but somehow it seemed that only the doctor had the authority.)  I was very irritable.  I felt someone had snuck in and turned up the oxytocin drip way up while I slept.

Another contraction was upon me and I jumped out of the bed and headed the three feet to the in-room toilet.  Although my last cervical check had me only 70% dilated, with the next contraction I began pushing propelled by my anger.  I was hoping no one would notice, since I had not been given permission to push yet.

It is interesting to be knowledgeable enough to suspect I was in transition and also be completely swept away by the disorientation of the transition stage of labor.  The somewhat predictable emotional reaction that women have during transition (which lasts anywhere from 15 minutes to an hour and a half) is intriguing.

This last week or so I have been experiencing a great deal of anger and general hostility arising.  I could not put my finger on what the source was when the idea of transition popped into my mind.  It has been my experience that emotionally uncomfortable periods are frequently followed by a lighter and more pleasant emotional climate that feels like a breakthrough.  I had thought that the uncomfortableness was simply stuff arising to be released.  When the releasing was done, I was left in a clearer space.

Perhaps that is what is occurring in transition also, or maybe my previous interpretation of the discomfort was inaccurate.  Could it be that just the change process itself leads to emotional funkiness?  Maybe I am not releasing previously held anger, but instead anger is simply arising do to the change process.

This insight suggests a different line of questioning:

  • What can I be to change with perfect ease?
  • What am I resisting letting go of that if I did let go of would allow me to create a completely different reality?
  • What do I know that I am denying that I know?
  • What can I choose today that will facilitate greater awareness?
  • What am I choosing that is keeping me trapped?

 

Provoking Pain

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I recently talked about false flag operations and how people ignore obvious discrepancies in the media’s reporting.  It is not uncommon for humans to shut down their awareness in the face of uncomfortable and/or unpleasant realities.  We simply cannot see what doesn’t fit into our world view or what we think is unbearable or undesirable. This is also apparent in our lifestyle choices.  Many people ignore or deny the awareness they have about their food choices, for instance.  Hence two thirds of the US is overweight and one third is obese.

One of the speakers at the Global Women’s Summit emphasized this point.  This neuroscientist/chiropractor pointed out that no one every came into his office saying, “I want to optimize my nervous system.  I want to make sure it is working at its best.”  Everyone that came into his office was motivated by pain.  They all wanted to alleviate pain. dorena-at-WINI am a little different. I am all about choosing today in a way that will create the highest amount of possibility.  People find themselves with high blood pressure or a heart attack in middle age and act as if it is not something that could have been prevented.  Instead of having an awareness of how they created it, they often attribute it to “old age”.  Other people in the same circumstances use the sudden decline in “imagined” health as an opportunity to choose differently.

At the Summit, I ran into the woman, Sandy,  I hired to promote my upcoming Women’s Health Workshop at the conference.  I mentioned to her that I had no sign-ups yet.  As the price was ridiculously low, she agreed with me that raising the price might help.  Still, at the end of the day not one woman had signed up for the class despite it being the last day at the low price.  Sandy looked at my flyer and said it seemed soft.  She suggested I get “outrageous”, along the veins of “DO THIS OR DIE”.

She was right.  Many of the speakers that day had talked about breast cancer as being a wake up call. Frightening people into acting was a sure fire way to get sign-ups.  It is easy to ignore the dangers of pharmaceuticals because they have the blessing of the government.  Here I was teaching a class on using alternative medicines to alleviate female complaints.  I was hoping for people to choose something that was for their health, but I was not providing them with any motivation.  With no pain they had no reason to choose something different.

If I wanted to fill that class I would need to remind them of the possible pain they would fall into in the future based on their choices today.  Unfortunately, that is just not my style.  I am trying to support people in being active, not reactive.  Still, I am curious, what am I judging to be so wrong about provoking people into taking a particular action that I am unwilling to employ that method to help them create more health in their life.  Hmmmm…. while I do judge being “sensational” as somewhat wrong, I also notice that do not feel that choosing to be healthy is such a rightness that I would want to use “skillful means” to recruit people.  I do not attribute inherent value to what I am teaching or to “creating more health in their life”.  Interesting.  What are your thoughts?

False Flag

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In December 2012 the media reported the deaths of twenty students and six staff members at the Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, CT.  Supposedly a twenty year-old, carrying more weapons that is physically possible, walked into the school and began shooting people.  I don’t watch media, but I remember being intrigued by a clip I saw on FaceBook. I watched media reports, which I don’t remember accurately, but the gist was that early media reports from a news helicopter showed a man being captured in the woods outside the school.  The media also reported another suspect being apprehended in front of the school.

However, within 24 hours the reports all changed to saying that the 20 year-old that had done the shooting had committed suicide in the building.  What was going on?  I continued to follow the story and watched a government expert on these types of actions analyze the reports in a detailed 60 minute commentary.  He is the one that pointed out that the weapons that the media claimed the young man carried in would actually be too heavy to carry.  In addition, the bereavement donation page had been created before the incident (time stamped by Google).  The whole incident got even more bizarre when I found out that in the movie, the Dark Knight, there is a scene showing a map with only one world written:  Sandy Hook.  I didn’t believe the YouTube, so I bought the movie and confirmed it.

Just today I found out, via the Official FBI Crime Statistics page, that the FBI claims that no murders happened in Newton, Connecticut in all for 2012.  Interesting, eh?

I was personally triggered by the Sandy Hook “shootings”.  I mention in the My Mother and Me chapter of my book, Deconditioning Ground, (pg 31) that this was the month that I uncovered a new series of repressed memories.  I didn’t realize the memories where governmental abuse until later in the month, but this was the trigger for those memories to surface.  Since repressed memories are a little surreal, and as unbelievable as the Sandy Hook Hoax, this demonstration of government deception was critical in my waking up and being able to release the beliefs that had been chaining me (pg 35 in the book).

These types of operations are called false flag operations.  It is been proposed by some that the reason that these deceptions are so obvious is that they are designed to wake us all up.  I write about it here, because I am encouraging everyone to be aware of what is going on in the United States.  I hold our situation with curiosity.  The actions of part of our government is in conflict with our constitution.  However, our government is a part of All that Is.  The government is not in control of my safety or me, yet I think there is cause to be wary.  I am aware of the risk of staying here while this situation (and I don’t even know what the situation truly is) continues.  I ask myself frequently, “Is it time to leave the country?”  and “What will it take for America to wake up and take personal responsibility for themselves?”  and “What can I do to contribute to more awareness?”

TESLI is all about fostering greater awareness in people.  The answers are within and I like it when people use their own inner knowing to decide what is right for them and right action in general.  Being in a country where we are fed lies, it is even more important for us to rely on our own knowing.  When I asked the president to investigate this further, via his White House contact page, I never got a response.