Creating our lives

Does it seem like life just happens to you?  Or are you consciously choosing to create your life?  What would it take to have a life that is completely different?  And what if the change could be effortless?  What if you could make a choice today that would simply change everything?

For me, many changes have occurred in the last six months: new partnerships, new surroundings and a blank slate for creation.  Expansive energy fills and moves me as I live the question: What can I create that is beyond my imagination?  And who would like to play with me in this creative process? And what is possible?

I have moved out of my comfort zone to experience more.

With my move back to the Bay Area, which was my home for thirty years, I have seized the opportunity to connect with old friends.  I am open to attracting partners, people with shared values and a desire to create something more. In the past I thought that I had to have a vision and invite people to that, but now I know that I can just be willing to create beyond what I have already created and not restrict the possibilities with “vision”.energyI feel so blessed in many ways, yet I know that what I am enjoying is just the fruits of the choices I have made.  I used to wait for opportunities to open up.  I was waiting to find the right mate, the right job, the right friends.  I knew I was amazing, just as we all are, and I was waiting to be discovered.

Now I know that the fuel for forcing opportunities to show up is choice.  If I want opportunities, all I have to do is choose and ward off any thoughts and feelings that limit me and the possibilities.  I also know that some choices naturally limit other choices.  For instance my choice to be meditative naturally limited how much time I spent with people.

If I choose to paint the house white than I can not simultaneously have a blue house.

When I move out of form and structure, more possibilities become available.  I do not have to figure out how to create success and opportunities, they naturally flow towards me when I am effortlessly being.  In addition, I can ask:  “What is my objective for choosing to do a particular activity?  And is it possible to achieve that objective by another means?”  In the case of meditation, I choose to meditate because I was keen on enlightenment.  Now I am just keen on enlightenment, without forcing my ideas on how I can make that come about.  I am open to meditating, and I am open to the divine moving me by other means.

Many years I lived in judgments that limited me.  I had ideas about what a good relationship was like, what type of partner would suit me, what type of work I wanted to do, and what the “highest and best” activities were.  One of my most limiting beliefs was that success in business and relationships took effort.  I am still working at totally realizing the ideas that Easy does it and that all of life can come to me with ease and joy and glory.

What can I choose today that will create a world beyond my wildest dreams?create

 

 

The Cat is back

Last year a cat claimed TESLI as its own.  Although I was not thrilled, it only became a problem when he started scaring away all the birds.  You may recall how I watched in terror as he plucked a fowl from my birdbath.

I spent sometime debating what to do about the cat and found I was pretty much in non-action.  Then when the neighbor’s feral cat had kittens, I decided I needed to at least have him fixed.  I ordered my traps from the spay and neuter clinic and set the date for his procedure.

As soon as I got the trap I realized that I would not be able to release him back into my yard.  I did not want the beast killing any more animals under my nose.  I wanted a peaceful yard again.  If I was going to have him in a trap he was going to be released somewhere else.

When relocating animals you must be mindful of the distance.  Rodents are good when released at least 3 miles away.  When I lived at the Cochise Stronghold, that is about the distance I would drive to release the mice that I was relocating from my trailer.  I know that larger animals such as cats and raccoons require over 10 miles of distance for a successful relocation.  I think 25 miles is recommended if an animal has settled in.

Due to my ambivalence, I choose a location that was suitable for rodent release, but really not far enough away for cat release.  Given the terrain I thought the location would prevent the cat from returning both because of the predators (including four-lane highways) and abundant prey/food available.  I was also allowing the possibility of him finding his way back to TESLI.

Back at TESLI, I was pleased with the rapid return of birds in the yard.  And, when the cat did not return the first week, I felt secure that he had found a new home.  Yet, last night when I drove in I saw a black shadow sweep across my porch.  Was I hallucinating?

No.  This morninthe gray cat is backg his gray form could be clearly seen under the front bushes.  This is one of his favorite places to wait and watch for the birds to come to the bath.  I was simultaneously happy to see him and felt like a burden had been laid at my feet.  The cat and the cat shit were back.  Bye-bye birds.  It took him a month to find his way back to my sanctuary.

 

Preparing a Garden Bed in Arizona

I was recently asked if I compost.  In a world were composting often means making a pile of vegetative waste, keeping it moist and turning it often, I would have to say no.  I am much too lazy for that.  However, I do save all my organic kitchen waste, as well as my vegetative yard waste, and I recycle it back into the soil.  This post will discuss my method.

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I use a combination of “double-digging” and “layering” to make vegetative waste disappear in just a few months.  But first, before I start digging, I usually accumulate quite a bit of waste.  This I store in large converted trash cans that I purchased from the City of Phoenix.  These come with holes drilled out for aeration and the bottoms cut off.  Pick up yours today at the dump.  Click here for more information.

 

Here is my method.

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Ready to become garden.

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First step is to wet the ground.

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Then I scrape out the wet surface to create a basin.

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Basin filled with water. The scrapings go in the wheel barrow

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I fill the basin a couple of times. Once the water has soaked in I am ready to dig.

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The soil is much easier to dig when moist. This shows that only a couple inches down, it is bone dry still.

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Dig out soil until the hole is two feet deep

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21 inches is close enough for me.

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Here are some fresh weeds and dried leaves I need to get rid of.

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Doesn’t matter how you put it in. Here I put the leaves in first.

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Then I put some fresh weeds next.

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I added fresh kitchen waste next.

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Then more leaves.   The dog is looking for that kitchen waste.

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Now comes the dirt. I start digging the next section and put that soil on top of the compostables.

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I buy mulch or compost from my local landscape supply.

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The compost is the next layer

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Then I alternate dirt with compost.

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The first section will end up mounded. That is fine. You will pull the soil back later onto the second section.

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I enjoy mixing the top layers of soil and compost together by hand. I break up clods and remove any large rocks.

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When the second section is deep enough I start the process over.

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Here the first and second sections are done. The next area is being scraped and getting ready to be soaked.

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This is the finished bed at the end of the summer season.  All that vegetable material is done rotting and often times the bed will settle and be lower than ground level.  Nice basin for moisture.

I am into keeping things simple and efficient. I like to garden about an hour a day. My method is conducive to this. Wet it one day, dig some the next day, fill in the next day, dig some more the next day, etc. However, I’ve also done this at a recovery center where hard core workers dug out the entire (rock solid) bed in a couple hours. Definitely harder work than I want to do. If you are trying to remove Bermuda grass at the same time, the ground definitely needs to be moist or pieces of the rhizomes will break off and sprout later.

I’ve used this method in a variety of ways.  Sometimes I just dig one big hole and slowly fill it with kitchen waste, etc.  Other times I use a smaller hole to get rid of a smaller amount of kitchen waste.  If I am replanting a bed, I usually do not go down as deep.  The deep hole is best when you are starting a garden to maximize the aeration and nutrition of the soil.