Here I am sharing my passion. A talk at the Harmony Center for the Joyful Spirit on August 3, 2014. I discuss the process of unveiling and encourage listeners to give up both negative and positive identities in order to reach enlightenment.
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As I entered the state yesterday afternoon I saw a camper trailer broken down on the side of the road. I was driving 60 mph up a hill on highway 10. The vehicle was wedged between the guard rail and the right traffic lane – just barely fitting in the tight space. As I sped past I notice a small arm and hand waving a jumper cable. The appendage belonged to a craggy old man that was hiding behind the front of the vehicle out of the way of the oncoming traffic.
My first thought was something like, “Oh shit”. In an instant I reviewed the reasons I didn’t have to stop:
- I had already driven past
- I really wanted to be home. (I’d been driving for 10 hours.)
- I couldn’t help. (Not true, but the idea did pop up.)
- I did not want to.
I pulled off the road. It had taken me a bit to get the car slowed and in the shoulder. Yet, despite the distance I told myself I could back up. I was scared. It felt dangerous. I also was aware that once I got to the vehicle that was back behind the bend, I would need to somehow get my car facing against the traffic, since there was no way to give him a jump unless the vehicles were face to face.
I was scared of the traffic, I was scared of backing up my car in the tiny shoulder, I was scared of the possibility of turning my car around, and I was scared of the legality of what I was doing. I was also vaguely aware that these people might be poised to mug me and steal my car. I disregarded that last thought as paranoia. It was a little hard to tune intuitively into the safety of the situation given my fear, but I am familiar with how my mind acts. That last thought of the people as a threat didn’t resonate as true. It was just my analytical mind considering all angles.
I began backing up. This was a miracle. Despite the close space I was able to keep the car straight and out of traffic. Once I was close, the old guy explained that he needed a jump because his alternator was not working. I would need to turn my vehicle around to face his.
I stalled a moment as I considered the situation. I know enough about cars for this problem to make sense. He didn’t seem to be a mugger or a car thief. His wife was sitting in the front seat of their vehicle. She seemed to match him in form: old, thin, tan and wrinkled.
He told me how to back up to turn my car around. I didn’t immediately respond. I had survived the backing up, but I needed a minute before I did the next scary thing. I tried to listen to the instructions he gave me, but couldn’t quite grasp them. I considered the width of the road, the small shoulder on the other side, and the truck traffic barreling by at 70 to 80 mph.
When it came time to do it, it was surprisingly simple. The road easily accommodated a U turn and the gap in the traffic was long enough to allow for a misjudge anyway.
I stayed in my car (and began organizing my stuff) while he hooked up the cables and we waited for his battery to charge. After a while he tried to turn over his engine. It would not start. I listened. It was clear that the problem was not the battery. He was getting plenty of juice and the starter sounded good too.
I was impatient. I looked at my clock and said to myself, “I’ll give him two more minutes”.
After four minutes I got out of my vehicle and sat down on the guard rail outside their passenger side window. The old guy was working on the engine from inside the “cock-pit”. I was surprised it was so accessible. He seemed to be putting gasoline into the air filter compartment. The woman told me, “he’s priming the engine”.
It seemed to work. The engine almost started with the next attempt. I sat there, ready to go. I started to pray Ho’oponopono. Then I tried a quick ThetaHealing on the car. My mind was telling me that they needed more than a jump and I should just go. I think I said something to the effect.
My mind also flashed to what my friend Shawn had told me a couple days prior about how he progressed to the unitive phase. The unitive phase is an important stage in the steps of enlightenment; One that I want to get to. He said that his path was loving God. In fact, he claimed, it was the only thing one needed to do.
I don’t believe in a creator being called God, but that has never stopped me from applying a spiritual principle. I thought about what would I do in this situation if I was demonstrating my love of God. My first thought was it didn’t matter. I could go or stay. Then I reflected on the fact that these were God’s children and he would do anything for them. I really didn’t want to stay especially when it seemed fruitless and when I was still a little upset from the scary things I done to move my vehicle in position.
My reflections continued. I had just spent 10 hours listening to the audio book “Pay it Forward” which is about doing good things for other people. In the book the child genius explains to a reluctant man that doing good when you feel like it is not as big a deal as doing good when it is hard or for someone you don’t like. This reminded my about something that Bernadette Roberts said regarding “doing virtue” being a killer for the ego.
Getting rid of my ego and/or the mindless chatter in my brain and senseless fears is a priority for me. So, instead of doing what I wanted to do. I stayed and continued with the Ho’oponopono. I disregarded my petty wants in lieu of my higher goals.
In another minute the man realized that he was out of gas. That made sense to me. He loaded his wife into my car and sent us for gas. I had a momentary wondering if I wanted to do this, but he didn’t even ask. It was assumed I would. It meant driving up to the first exit and doubling back to the gas station, but it was over soon enough.
As I waited, curious if the camper/trailer would start now that he had added two gallons to the tank, he flagged me away. I noticed that I was no longer impatient and wanted to stay, but when he repeated his gesture I drove off.
As I drove on, I reflected on the two people I had just met with an appreciation for their character and their being. I noted that I just felt a mundane sort of goodness.
What’s left after unveiling
“Whatever we care to call the ultimate reality, we cannot define or qualify it because the brain is incapable of processing this kind of data.”
— Bernadette Roberts
The process of unveiling will eventually bring us in contact with ultimate reality – a reality we cannot define or talk about using words. We can say: we are not stupid and we are not smart, and we are not our body parts and we are not our thoughts, and we are not our emotions, nor our reactions, but we cannot actually say what we are. Bernadette Roberts expresses this nicely in the above quote.
And who is Bernadette Roberts?
Bernadette Roberts is a self-made Buddha. She was a Catholic nun for 10 years following the Christian contemplative path. When she reached what the Catholics consider the closest you can get to God this side of the grave, she left the monastery with the intention of serving God in the world. She went back to school, held regular employment, got married and had four children.
During the 20 years after leaving the nunnery, she reached full enlightenment without any formal teacher or guidance. She describes this process as the path to no-self. You can read the full story in her books. She is refreshing in that she is a no nonsense person and expresses herself without any dogmatic bent.
The experience of no-self is the ultimate unveiling. Identifying with negatives has gone, identifying with positives has gone and all that remains is the experience of being all that is. How do we get to this experience? I paraphrase Bernadette:
Since self cannot experience ultimate reality as it truly is, then the only way to do so is to be prepared to relinquish every last thing we know as self — everything we experience, in fact.
It appears that the key factor is willingness. It is the willingness to give up everything we experience. Another word for this is renunciation. Renunciation is disinterest in worldly things. If we have renunciation, we would certainly be willing to give up everything we experience in the world. We can say the same thing a different way: with renunciation we are only interested in becoming enlightened or knowing God and think about that day and night.
How far do you want to go? People talk about working towards enlightenment, but the true first step is becoming willing to give up everything. Not many people are really interested in that. They think enlightenment is keeping it all and getting more.