I came to peace quickly regarding Chispa’s death on Friday night. Amongst all my musings was the question of how I could contribute to her transition. In my study of Buddhism I learned that the state of mind at the time of death greatly influences what occurs next. Suspecting that she was greatly terrified at the moment of her demise, I did not want that fear and confusion to define her next incarnation.
I knew that I needed to be calm and release my own fears and regrets. Using meditative practices (I walked the nine-palace.) I was able to regain calm. Then, moving into the Theta brain wave state, I reached out to her. I lit a candle and played the chanting music I always used when the thunder and lightening came. I was able to maintain my calm and I believe that was important to her journey.
Saturday morning I awoke calm, but moved back into deep sorrow. My post on Saturday reflected this reawakening of grief. Saturday, my nine palace walking did not bring me relief. Finally, I sat down to just be. I thought I might never get up and certainly could not do anything but be in sorrow all day. I had a feeling that the emotions that I was feeling were not mine, but were arising due to the concern and sorrow of my friends. I tried the Access Consciousness trick of “return to sender”. It did not bring me any relief.
Then, I used a Access Consciousness Body Process (Trifold Sequencing Systems) on myself that I had used before with people stuck in trauma and or the bereavement process. This process works to reset anything that is stuck looping. In my case, I felt that the grief was just looping around. Within seconds of commanding the process to run, all that “stuff” was gone. A couple minutes went by before I realized what had happened. Then I got up, went outside and planted sunflowers and corn.